you know luna park moved? or re-opened, whatever it was like 2010, i know i still lived there me and tori would try to sneak in after it was closed and dick around like we couldn't ride the rides, right? it was fuckin closed so we'd just sort of walk around it was fuckin stupid but in a kid way LOL
yeah, i mean, we moved not a whole long longer after so i haven't really been since then
[ he's possibly in his head like "you will see where i used to live and where stuff i like is and further information about me will be perceived, what a nightmare." again, he is a chump. it took him this long to even refer to his sister by name. ]
do you just live in an empty room with a bed in it or what not being sarcastic, actual question
if you want to, sure most of it's kind of lame and shitty though, dead ass i like it because i remember it, yknow but it's the neighborhood next to coney where everything's kind of dirty, everyone looks kinda pissed off, and everything's in russian there's a really good bakery place that's still around afaik the baklava is hella
we can do other shit too yknow oh shit dude have you ever walked the high line???
[ while he's on some thought spiral of what is cool enough to share with bucky vs too lame, bucky's apartment situation has come to distract and sit in the front seat. ]
right, okay so you live in an empty room with a bed in it attached to an empty living space?
I doubt I'll find them lame or shitty I want to know what it was like for you and how things were I'd feel closer, knowing
haven't been to the high line yet we could do that too
it's not empty I have chairs, a TV, a media console
( one dining chair, one armchair, one miscellaneous other chair. all of the furniture was left by the previous tenant also, so it's not like bucky put any effort into getting any either. )
[ oh my god bucky you can't just SAY things like "i want to know what it was like for you / i'd feel closer knowing." it makes a wall he built inside himself crumble while his insides liquify. he doesn't know what do do with all that gentle and sincere attention. besides get slightly flushed. ]
really? for sure, if you really want to although to be real i lived in sheepshead bay longer than brighton it's more suburban and kinda boring but there's piers and a cool bridge
[ how much he trusts bucky: he would rather die than tell literally anyone else on earth one of the things he misses is a "cool bridge." ]
but anyway high line is one of those things that's like it's fuckin sick because a park that used to be railway tracks or whatever is cool right but then it turned into a gentrification thing. yknow like here's a nice park let's build new hipster shit and raise rent by a ton about it it caused that motherfuckin bitch ass beehive alien nest looking piece of shit building getting built you've seen that thing right fuckin hate it dude
wait what you don't have a table or a couch the fuck is that about
I really want to I don't tend to say stuff I don't mean and it's cool I grew up in Flatbush so it's not like I'm super familiar with where you were living anyway like a day visitor, at best
show me the cool bridge
and yeah I can barely afford my rent NY has changed a lot and not in all very good ways guess that's why I really enjoyed Boston? reminded me of when pricing was fairing among other things guess any major city is a nightmare nowadays though
and I have tables ( two whole end tables. ) look, if you want to stay somewhere else, that's fine you don't need to grill me about my place I just figured it'd be more convenient I'm not as rich as you are or whatever
legit it'd probably be way different back then anyway it kind of blew up in the 70s when everyone was like "fuck the soviet union, i'm out" right. i think it's more central asian now anyway
[ he worked through "this is lame and boring why am i talking about this" feelings, and for that he should be rewarded. with a treat, like a cheeto. ]
idk if i'd say all that about boston though housing shit is BAD in some ways i think it's kinda worse than new york because the space everybody's fighting over is smaller and more crammed in like i said i see people be really fuckin desperate about it at work i get why you'd like it though but yeah
[ oof — a (needed) privilege check. just because he doesn't think of himself as ✨ rich ✨ doesn't mean he... is not. "it's not the same, i just get whatever i want all the time" is a really goofy justification once he thinks it out loud in his brain. ]
whoa dude i didn't mean it like that i was just surprised and a jackass look bro do you wanna get a couch and a coffee table from ikea or one of those furniture stores where a pillow shaped like a dog bone costs a cool thou
guess we'll see when we go, then ( he's not exactly a brooklyn historian so he doesn't know all of that as such, but he doesn't mind humoring alex's interest either. the way things shift with time can still be interesting, despite the implications. )
at work? I thought you only did the stuff for the fox guy I wasn't really talking about the housing when I was saying I enjoyed Boston that was more in expansion on saying how much NY has changed I did check a bit, and it seems like it's reasonably on par anywhere further out from where you live. ( much, much further out, anyway. )
if it means you'll stop asking about my furniture, sure it's really not a priority for me when I live alone and am gone 90% of the time
yeah, stuff for foxface is work it's weird to talk about "sketchy errands i run for some guy" so but yeah i kinda get it it's probably not as big as you feel it but whenever i go back to visit, everything's all different. like someplace closed and got replaced with something more boring that probably makes more money so who gives a shit, right? like okay stay with me here fuck times square right but when i was a kid there was this big ass toy store like two stories, whole ass ferris wheel in the store you could RIDE, arcade, giant t. rex going there was like the sickest shit in the world then it closed because they couldn't afford the rent and now it's fuckin old navy or something
anyway seriously dude i'm sorry it just kinda made me sad idk but it's your space, don't listen to me. it's not like i'm on interior design weekly i dunno if that's a real magazine but i'm not on it
oh okay thought it was just the collecting debts thing didn't realize there were other errands
times square is a good example though cause when I heard tourists love going there now I couldn't wrap my head around it at all since it was a red light district before until the 70s? or something like that but yeah that's all I knew it for strip clubs and sex workers
really? that's fuckin bonkers dude it's the worst now everything's loud and people are always riding your ass not in the 70s way
thinking of you coming back from a long day of avenging whatever the fuck to a room with a couple chairs and your mason jar full of water makes me sad, okay? i don't fuckin know because you deserve better
I mean...we had Broadway it's just not what you're thinking as Broadway it's only what it is now because of what it used to be though and I don't know I just used to keep up with stuff like that is all maybe I'm not suited for it anymore though
even a $300 couch is $300 I will have to abandon if I need to go though it's not really that practical
it's not bad? I just genuinely don't know what you mean by nice things here I live comfortably, have a shower, have hot water, have full a/c, have a well stocked kitchen that I use regularly
oh okay i mean if you wanted to go though we could
then whatever, if you have to go let me know and i'll take care of it as in sell it or something. not arson
where do you eat when you finish making meals with your well-stocked kitchen over the sink? because i mean big relate but we can't both eat over the sink
if you want to. it's not that i don't, i'm just neutral unless you do. does that makes sense?
[ he was intrigued by the ✨ this is a date activity right?? ✨ of it all moreso than a desire to see hamilton. (it would have to be hamilton, there are so many banger songs featuring his name...) ]
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okay well i'm gonna buy a coffee table for me and leave it at your place until i get around to picking it back up
I mean, might as well do the whole new york experience while i'm there, right? is there anything you wanna see? like, if you were thinking of it already
[ oh no... did he do the thing again? he did the thing. he said too much or pushed too much or was simply Too Much. if he could stop having feelings forever, that would be real cool. or at least if he could stop having the bad ones. ]
it's not trouble i'm sorry if i pissed you off, dude i won't try to get you anything if you like how you're living
it'd probably be easier if you directed us, for that I don't really know a lot of the modern things worth seeing I'm more than willing to follow your lead, you know I trust you
I'm not pissed? I'm not sure where you got that impression I just want you to be comfortable when you visit and I don't want to worry you
[ (it's still hamilton. he's just now also insisting on being a dipshit about it.)
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i'm telling you i wanna do something nice for you and you're like, fighting me every step of the way with reasons why i shouldn't. if i wanna blow $300 on a couch from target or something that gets trashed if you have to leave the next fuckin day, that's still something i wanted to do and wouldn't feel bad about.
but i don't wanna push it on you if you really don't want anything either, so i'm trying to back off. it's just hard.
I'm not trying to fight you but maybe our perspectives are just too different so it's hard to reconcile for the both of us? I grew up really poor so just buying someone a couch is a pretty big deal, when I'm from and given the norms I'm used to, and to me $300 is a lot to throw at a couch that might only be used once because of how I grew up, I'm very attuned to the notion of waste also I know you haven't really seen that side of me yet but for example food waste is something that's very difficult for me to witness and put up with monetary waste is several pegs down, but still not something I'm accustomed to
in some ways, I'm sort of forgetting you can have anything you want and money is no consequence to you, so that is a little on me but also I don't feel comfortable with you throwing around money for my sake just cause you can too I don't want you to think that's what I'm here for or that that's the only way to treat me to something nice and I don't want to get used to having whatever I want whenever I want either since that would change the person that I am
i mean, i kinda got the food thing. with the mason jars. but
yeah. i think it makes sense. i didn't grow up super poor but it's not like we were rolling in it either. we didn't starve but we weren't doing a whole lot of... i dunno, extracurricular bullshit my parents blamed me for that but that's another thing but anyway, i know this has been my situation for awhile but i still don't really know what to do with money and i know that probably sounds really fuckin' stupid to you. i know. like, what a dumbass am i, don't know what plates to buy or how to dress nice or whatever, boo hoo so i guess if i have money and you don't or i can do something to make your life better, i wanna do that. because what the fuck else am i gonna do? hookers and blow? that was a joke dude i can't believe we're fighting over fucking furniture that's married people shit
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it was like 2010, i know i still lived there
me and tori would try to sneak in after it was closed and dick around
like we couldn't ride the rides, right? it was fuckin closed
so we'd just sort of walk around
it was fuckin stupid but in a kid way LOL
anyway
why don't you have any furniture??
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yeah I've heardhaven't been since it reopened though
( ...potential date material? )
Steve and I would hang around until it started getting darkit's something I still remember welland I don't really need furniture? sono subject
[ he's possibly in his head like "you will see where i used to live and where stuff i like is and further information about me will be perceived, what a nightmare." again, he is a chump. it took him this long to even refer to his sister by name. ]
do you just live in an empty room with a bed in it or what
not being sarcastic, actual question
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we should go, thenI want to see all the places you used to go too, if they're around
( and then here's bucky walking right on a land mine, being curious in someone he likes like a normal person. )
it's not a studiothe bedroom is separate( which doesn't confirm or deny anything else. )
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most of it's kind of lame and shitty though, dead ass
i like it because i remember it, yknow
but it's the neighborhood next to coney where everything's kind of dirty, everyone looks kinda pissed off, and everything's in russian
there's a really good bakery place that's still around afaik
the baklava is hella
we can do other shit too yknow
oh shit dude have you ever walked the high line???
[ while he's on some thought spiral of what is cool enough to share with bucky vs too lame, bucky's apartment situation has come to distract and sit in the front seat. ]
right, okay
so you live in an empty room with a bed in it attached to an empty living space?
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I doubt I'll find them lame or shittyI want to know what it was like for you and how things were
I'd feel closer, knowinghaven't been to the high line yetwe could do that too
it's not empty I have chairs, a TV, a media console( one dining chair, one armchair, one miscellaneous other chair. all of the furniture was left by the previous tenant also, so it's not like bucky put any effort into getting any either. )
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really? for sure, if you really want to
although to be real i lived in sheepshead bay longer than brighton
it's more suburban and kinda boring but there's piers
and a cool bridge
[ how much he trusts bucky: he would rather die than tell literally anyone else on earth one of the things he misses is a "cool bridge." ]
but anyway high line is one of those things that's like
it's fuckin sick because a park that used to be railway tracks or whatever is cool right
but then it turned into a gentrification thing. yknow like
here's a nice park let's build new hipster shit and raise rent by a ton about it
it caused that motherfuckin bitch ass beehive alien nest looking piece of shit building getting built
you've seen that thing right
fuckin hate it dude
wait what
you don't have a table
or a couch
the fuck is that about
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I really want toI don't tend to say stuff I don't meanand it's coolI grew up in Flatbush so it's not like I'm super familiar with where you were living anyway
like a day visitor, at bestshow me the cool bridgeand yeah I can barely afford my rentNY has changed a lot
and not in all very good ways
guess that's why I really enjoyed Boston? reminded me of when pricing was fairing among other thingsguess any major city is a nightmare nowadays thoughand I have tables( two whole end tables. )look, if you want to stay somewhere else, that's fineyou don't need to grill me about my place
I just figured it'd be more convenientI'm not as rich as you are or whateverno subject
it'd probably be way different back then anyway
it kind of blew up in the 70s when everyone was like "fuck the soviet union, i'm out" right. i think it's more central asian now anyway
[ he worked through "this is lame and boring why am i talking about this" feelings, and for that he should be rewarded. with a treat, like a cheeto. ]
idk if i'd say all that about boston though
housing shit is BAD
in some ways i think it's kinda worse than new york because the space everybody's fighting over is smaller and more crammed in
like i said i see people be really fuckin desperate about it at work
i get why you'd like it though
but yeah
[ oof — a (needed) privilege check. just because he doesn't think of himself as ✨ rich ✨ doesn't mean he... is not. "it's not the same, i just get whatever i want all the time" is a really goofy justification once he thinks it out loud in his brain. ]
whoa dude i didn't mean it like that
i was just surprised
and a jackass
look bro do you wanna get a couch and a coffee table
from ikea or one of those furniture stores where a pillow shaped like a dog bone costs a cool thou
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guess we'll see when we go, then( he's not exactly a brooklyn historian so he doesn't know all of that as such, but he doesn't mind humoring alex's interest either. the way things shift with time can still be interesting, despite the implications. )at work? I thought you only did the stuff for the fox guyI wasn't really talking about the housing when I was saying I enjoyed Bostonthat was more in expansion on saying how much NY has changed
I did check a bit, and it seems like it's reasonably on par anywhere further out from where you live.( much, much further out, anyway. )if it means you'll stop asking about my furniture, sureit's really not a priority for me when I live alone and am gone 90% of the timeno subject
it's weird to talk about "sketchy errands i run for some guy" so
but yeah
i kinda get it
it's probably not as big as you feel it but
whenever i go back to visit, everything's all different. like someplace closed and got replaced with something more boring that probably makes more money so who gives a shit, right?
like okay stay with me here
fuck times square right but when i was a kid there was this big ass toy store
like two stories, whole ass ferris wheel in the store you could RIDE, arcade, giant t. rex
going there was like the sickest shit in the world
then it closed because they couldn't afford the rent
and now it's fuckin old navy or something
anyway
seriously dude i'm sorry
it just kinda made me sad idk
but it's your space, don't listen to me. it's not like i'm on interior design weekly
i dunno if that's a real magazine but i'm not on it
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oh okaythought it was just the collecting debts thing
didn't realize there were other errandstimes square is a good example though cause when I heard tourists love going there now I couldn't wrap my head around it at allsince it was a red light district beforeuntil the 70s? or something like that but yeah that's all I knew it forstrip clubs and sex workerssad? why sad?no subject
that's fuckin bonkers dude
it's the worst now
everything's loud and people are always riding your ass
not in the 70s way
thinking of you coming back from a long day of avenging whatever the fuck to a room with a couple chairs and your mason jar full of water makes me sad, okay? i don't fuckin know
because you deserve better
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yeahstill gotta go in the area if I wanna check Broadway though
which is a whole other headachehmfor posterity, I'm not an Avengerit's easier to live this way when I might have to relocate at any timeI'm not sure what you think I deserve though
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i mean that makes sense, it's not like you... had them
but d'you have something you wanna see?
whatever, you know what i meant
yeah i mean i'm not saying go get a $9,000 couch from some high-end place in chelsea
the pillow thing was a joke
nice things? i dunno. i think you deserve nice things
is that so fuckin bad???
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I mean...we had Broadwayit's just not what you're thinking as Broadway
it's only what it is now because of what it used to be thoughand I don't know I just used to keep up with stuff like that is allmaybe I'm not suited for it anymore though
even a $300 couch is $300 I will have to abandon if I need to go thoughit's not really that practicalit's not bad?I just genuinely don't know what you mean by nice things hereI live comfortably, have a shower, have hot water, have full a/c, have a well stocked kitchen that I use regularlyno subject
okay
i mean if you wanted to go though we could
then whatever, if you have to go let me know and i'll take care of it
as in sell it or something. not arson
where do you eat when you finish making meals with your well-stocked kitchen
over the sink?
because i mean big relate but we can't both eat over the sink
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would you want to?( he can't tell if alex is saying it because he wants to or just because he thinks bucky might want to. )...you're out in Boston how will you handle any of that remotely??varies between the counter, floor, and chairit's not uncomfortable
I have two sinks don't worry 🙂no subject
[ he was intrigued by the ✨ this is a date activity right?? ✨ of it all moreso than a desire to see hamilton. (it would have to be hamilton, there are so many banger songs featuring his name...) ]
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okay well i'm gonna buy a coffee table for me and leave it at your place until i get around to picking it back up
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I think it'd be interesting, if you would like to go( passes the ball back to alex. )
okaysure
if you need to
sorry for the troubleno subject
[ oh no... did he do the thing again? he did the thing. he said too much or pushed too much or was simply Too Much. if he could stop having feelings forever, that would be real cool. or at least if he could stop having the bad ones. ]
it's not trouble
i'm sorry if i pissed you off, dude
i won't try to get you anything if you like how you're living
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it'd probably be easier if you directed us, for thatI don't really know a lot of the modern things worth seeing
I'm more than willing to follow your lead, you knowI trust youI'm not pissed? I'm not sure where you got that impressionI just want you to be comfortable when you visitand I don't want to worry you
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i know what we can see 🙂
[ (it's still hamilton. he's just now also insisting on being a dipshit about it.)
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i'm telling you i wanna do something nice for you and you're like, fighting me every step of the way with reasons why i shouldn't. if i wanna blow $300 on a couch from target or something that gets trashed if you have to leave the next fuckin day, that's still something i wanted to do and wouldn't feel bad about.
but i don't wanna push it on you if you really don't want anything either, so i'm trying to back off. it's just hard.
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yeah? 🙂I'm not trying to fight you but maybe our perspectives are just too different so it's hard to reconcile for the both of us?I grew up really poor so just buying someone a couch is a pretty big deal, when I'm from and given the norms I'm used to, and to me $300 is a lot to throw at a couch that might only be used oncebecause of how I grew up, I'm very attuned to the notion of waste alsoI know you haven't really seen that side of me yet but for example food waste is something that's very difficult for me to witness and put up with
monetary waste is several pegs down, but still not something I'm accustomed toin some ways, I'm sort of forgetting you can have anything you want and money is no consequence to you, so that is a little on mebut also I don't feel comfortable with you throwing around money for my sake just cause you can too
I don't want you to think that's what I'm here for or that that's the only way to treat me to something niceand I don't want to get used to having whatever I want whenever I want either since that would change the person that I am
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i mean, i kinda got the food thing. with the mason jars. but
yeah. i think it makes sense. i didn't grow up super poor but it's not like we were rolling in it either. we didn't starve but we weren't doing a whole lot of... i dunno, extracurricular bullshit
my parents blamed me for that but that's another thing
but anyway, i know this has been my situation for awhile but i still don't really know what to do with money
and i know that probably sounds really fuckin' stupid to you. i know. like, what a dumbass am i, don't know what plates to buy or how to dress nice or whatever, boo hoo
so i guess if i have money and you don't or i can do something to make your life better, i wanna do that. because what the fuck else am i gonna do? hookers and blow?
that was a joke
dude i can't believe we're fighting over fucking furniture
that's married people shit
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