if you want to. it's not that i don't, i'm just neutral unless you do. does that makes sense?
[ he was intrigued by the ✨ this is a date activity right?? ✨ of it all moreso than a desire to see hamilton. (it would have to be hamilton, there are so many banger songs featuring his name...) ]
carefully
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okay well i'm gonna buy a coffee table for me and leave it at your place until i get around to picking it back up
I mean, might as well do the whole new york experience while i'm there, right? is there anything you wanna see? like, if you were thinking of it already
[ oh no... did he do the thing again? he did the thing. he said too much or pushed too much or was simply Too Much. if he could stop having feelings forever, that would be real cool. or at least if he could stop having the bad ones. ]
it's not trouble i'm sorry if i pissed you off, dude i won't try to get you anything if you like how you're living
it'd probably be easier if you directed us, for that I don't really know a lot of the modern things worth seeing I'm more than willing to follow your lead, you know I trust you
I'm not pissed? I'm not sure where you got that impression I just want you to be comfortable when you visit and I don't want to worry you
[ (it's still hamilton. he's just now also insisting on being a dipshit about it.)
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i'm telling you i wanna do something nice for you and you're like, fighting me every step of the way with reasons why i shouldn't. if i wanna blow $300 on a couch from target or something that gets trashed if you have to leave the next fuckin day, that's still something i wanted to do and wouldn't feel bad about.
but i don't wanna push it on you if you really don't want anything either, so i'm trying to back off. it's just hard.
I'm not trying to fight you but maybe our perspectives are just too different so it's hard to reconcile for the both of us? I grew up really poor so just buying someone a couch is a pretty big deal, when I'm from and given the norms I'm used to, and to me $300 is a lot to throw at a couch that might only be used once because of how I grew up, I'm very attuned to the notion of waste also I know you haven't really seen that side of me yet but for example food waste is something that's very difficult for me to witness and put up with monetary waste is several pegs down, but still not something I'm accustomed to
in some ways, I'm sort of forgetting you can have anything you want and money is no consequence to you, so that is a little on me but also I don't feel comfortable with you throwing around money for my sake just cause you can too I don't want you to think that's what I'm here for or that that's the only way to treat me to something nice and I don't want to get used to having whatever I want whenever I want either since that would change the person that I am
i mean, i kinda got the food thing. with the mason jars. but
yeah. i think it makes sense. i didn't grow up super poor but it's not like we were rolling in it either. we didn't starve but we weren't doing a whole lot of... i dunno, extracurricular bullshit my parents blamed me for that but that's another thing but anyway, i know this has been my situation for awhile but i still don't really know what to do with money and i know that probably sounds really fuckin' stupid to you. i know. like, what a dumbass am i, don't know what plates to buy or how to dress nice or whatever, boo hoo so i guess if i have money and you don't or i can do something to make your life better, i wanna do that. because what the fuck else am i gonna do? hookers and blow? that was a joke dude i can't believe we're fighting over fucking furniture that's married people shit
I understand though I wouldn't know what to do with that money either it's not stupid how about we see what there is and maybe buy just one piece for now? and when you come again we can maybe look at another? that way we know I'm still in the same place, right?
if it's not clear though, thank you I really am grateful that you want to do something nice for me
i dunno man, what are we gonna do about last names? 😉
yeah to be clear i was just thinking either a couch or a coffee table like you already have chairs but then you'd have a place to put things that isn't like an official table. like it's multi-functional
[ he put so much thought into furnishing an apartment he hasn't even seen, bless his cotton socks. ]
yeah, of course dude like i said, y'know you deserve nice shit at least like base level nice shit
mmm maybe we should just keep em separate alex barnes sounds so white bread but my name already barely fits the character count for credit cards and shit
i just mean because you don't want anything hella fancy you're still gonna get the best coffee table ikea can buy
i mean it's still my "real" name. i just don't give it to anyone anyway those need some work if you're really trying to russian it up, it would be more like baronov. or barnsov, barnesov. let's go nuts, barnznakov one of those wouldn't be too bad 🤔
yeah for sure nothing as hella romantic as the warehouse lighting in an ikea, deadass
didn't know how Russian you still wanted it since I'm boring white bread compared to you British background and all that Barnznakov feels very intimate I like that I was trying to make it easier on your credit cards though 🙂
what's wrong with the warehouse lighting? I think IKEA is nice
oh damn well we definitely have to fix that then and yeah I think that'd help it wouldn't feel as empty that way because part of you would always be here
[ sir?? SIR??? what kind of gay shenanigans??? "it wouldn't feel as empty that way because part of you would always be here"? kill him. right here, on the spot. stop just SAYING these things! he's gonna have to go have a smoke to calm down from this, the fuck. ]
well if you want to decorate with parts of me, you just had to ask hmm that came out pretty wrong huh
and I feel like the only way that makes sense is something dirty but I'm assuming you also mean a specific kind of dirty and not like blowing you up in my apartment or whatever
is that so how about you expand on that. wrong way or dirty way?
aw, i'm glad you took time to think about my oral hygiene i mean i was gonna just bring some of my shit over like i said just some little whatevers so you have something nice
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[ he was intrigued by the ✨ this is a date activity right?? ✨ of it all moreso than a desire to see hamilton. (it would have to be hamilton, there are so many banger songs featuring his name...) ]
carefully
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okay well i'm gonna buy a coffee table for me and leave it at your place until i get around to picking it back up
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I think it'd be interesting, if you would like to go( passes the ball back to alex. )
okaysure
if you need to
sorry for the troubleno subject
[ oh no... did he do the thing again? he did the thing. he said too much or pushed too much or was simply Too Much. if he could stop having feelings forever, that would be real cool. or at least if he could stop having the bad ones. ]
it's not trouble
i'm sorry if i pissed you off, dude
i won't try to get you anything if you like how you're living
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it'd probably be easier if you directed us, for thatI don't really know a lot of the modern things worth seeing
I'm more than willing to follow your lead, you knowI trust youI'm not pissed? I'm not sure where you got that impressionI just want you to be comfortable when you visitand I don't want to worry you
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i know what we can see 🙂
[ (it's still hamilton. he's just now also insisting on being a dipshit about it.)
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i'm telling you i wanna do something nice for you and you're like, fighting me every step of the way with reasons why i shouldn't. if i wanna blow $300 on a couch from target or something that gets trashed if you have to leave the next fuckin day, that's still something i wanted to do and wouldn't feel bad about.
but i don't wanna push it on you if you really don't want anything either, so i'm trying to back off. it's just hard.
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yeah? 🙂I'm not trying to fight you but maybe our perspectives are just too different so it's hard to reconcile for the both of us?I grew up really poor so just buying someone a couch is a pretty big deal, when I'm from and given the norms I'm used to, and to me $300 is a lot to throw at a couch that might only be used oncebecause of how I grew up, I'm very attuned to the notion of waste alsoI know you haven't really seen that side of me yet but for example food waste is something that's very difficult for me to witness and put up with
monetary waste is several pegs down, but still not something I'm accustomed toin some ways, I'm sort of forgetting you can have anything you want and money is no consequence to you, so that is a little on mebut also I don't feel comfortable with you throwing around money for my sake just cause you can too
I don't want you to think that's what I'm here for or that that's the only way to treat me to something niceand I don't want to get used to having whatever I want whenever I want either since that would change the person that I am
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i mean, i kinda got the food thing. with the mason jars. but
yeah. i think it makes sense. i didn't grow up super poor but it's not like we were rolling in it either. we didn't starve but we weren't doing a whole lot of... i dunno, extracurricular bullshit
my parents blamed me for that but that's another thing
but anyway, i know this has been my situation for awhile but i still don't really know what to do with money
and i know that probably sounds really fuckin' stupid to you. i know. like, what a dumbass am i, don't know what plates to buy or how to dress nice or whatever, boo hoo
so i guess if i have money and you don't or i can do something to make your life better, i wanna do that. because what the fuck else am i gonna do? hookers and blow?
that was a joke
dude i can't believe we're fighting over fucking furniture
that's married people shit
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☺️if it's married people shit, are you proposing? 🙂I understand thoughI wouldn't know what to do with that money either
it's not stupidhow about we see what there is and maybe buy just one piece for now? and when you come again we can maybe look at another?that way we know I'm still in the same place, right?
if it's not clear though, thank youI really am grateful that you want to do something nice for meno subject
yeah to be clear i was just thinking either a couch or a coffee table
like you already have chairs but then you'd have a place to put things that isn't like an official table. like it's multi-functional
[ he put so much thought into furnishing an apartment he hasn't even seen, bless his cotton socks. ]
yeah, of course dude
like i said, y'know
you deserve nice shit
at least like base level nice shit
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would you rather combine, keep yours, or use mine? I'm generally open to what my partner prefers, though I am mostly know as James Barnes( just says that all plainly because it's also true. )
suremakes sense
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alex barnes sounds so white bread but my name already barely fits the character count for credit cards and shit
i just mean because you don't want anything hella fancy
you're still gonna get the best coffee table ikea can buy
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Alexander Karanes maybeor Alexander Barmov?
I'm assuming you wouldn't want to use your original last name( since he changed it. )
ohright
well yeah like I said we can go look for something togetherno subject
anyway those need some work
if you're really trying to russian it up, it would be more like baronov. or barnsov, barnesov. let's go nuts, barnznakov
one of those wouldn't be too bad 🤔
yeah for sure
nothing as hella romantic as the warehouse lighting in an ikea, deadass
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didn't know how Russian you still wanted itsince I'm boring white bread compared to you
British background and all that
Barnznakov feels very intimateI like that
I was trying to make it easier on your credit cards though 🙂what's wrong with the warehouse lighting?I think IKEA is niceno subject
you're great white bread
like a good sourdough
anyway it's the same length as karamazov so 🤷🏻
i was joshing you
talking shit
hey do you want a shark
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I meant my suggestions, silly 🙂you mean the IKEA plush?( yes, he uses the internet. )suremaybe we get a couple
one for each of us 🙂no subject
yeah, blahaj
i used to have one but something happened to it so
sounds like we've gotta get two
it's really gonna bring your place together
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cause I'm soft and fluffy on the inside?oh damnwell we definitely have to fix that then
and yeah I think that'd helpit wouldn't feel as empty that way because part of you would always be hereno subject
[ sir?? SIR??? what kind of gay shenanigans??? "it wouldn't feel as empty that way because part of you would always be here"? kill him. right here, on the spot. stop just SAYING these things! he's gonna have to go have a smoke to calm down from this, the fuck. ]
well if you want to decorate with parts of me, you just had to ask
hmm
that came out pretty wrong huh
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we like to call that characterandI
feel like the only way that makes sense is something dirtybut I'm assuming you also mean a specific kind of dirty and not likeblowing you up in my apartment or whatever
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it was more wrong in the what the fuck kind of serial killer bullshit sense
but i was really going for a blanket or coffee cup or something though
in general
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ohright
I'm not opposed to a little blood or knives though
I'm just
saying
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we can have those too 🙂and also a toothbrushno subject
how about you expand on that. wrong way or dirty way?
aw, i'm glad you took time to think about my oral hygiene
i mean i was gonna just bring some of my shit over
like i said just some little whatevers
so you have something nice
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if by dirty we're talking like sex and stuff then definitely dirtywell you don't have to leave one here if you don't want to( leaving one there would just imply that alex will be back again soon, though. )
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what?? i wasn't being sarcastic, i thought it was nice
sweet. adorable even
i just meant the other stuff
not-toothbrush stuff
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