there's nothing wrong with wanting to make things right, but I don't want you thinking I'm going to leave you or something and it definitely feels like you assume that sometimes
[ in a true show of no thoughts head empty, it's only now when bucky points this out that he sits back like "yes. yes... this is why i am so unhinged around you all the time." ]
it's not you or anything you're doing i just don't want to fuck everything up
[ oh no. oh no. he pulled out the l word (lesbians) AND alexander all in one sentence. is alex going to faint? it feels like he might faint a little bit. no, he needs to hold on to being conscious. and shed some tears maybe. then never tell anyone he shed tears or is in fact capable of any emotions. (except for bucky, clearly.) he literally just sits there staring at the phone screen for a moment while listening to the blood rushing into his ears. ]
i love you too james
it's so stupid, but every time you say shit like "i'm here" it makes me want to cry kind of? i'm not used to it so i gotta stop getting in my head waiting for it to be different
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right, we're still learning
are we good? i just wanna make sure we're good
[ ✨ because i have abandonment issues ✨ ]
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what exactly do you think will happen if we aren't?no subject
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there's nothing wrong with wanting to make things right, but I don't want you thinking I'm going to leave you or something and it definitely feels like you assume that sometimesno subject
[ in a true show of no thoughts head empty, it's only now when bucky points this out that he sits back like "yes. yes... this is why i am so unhinged around you all the time." ]
it's not you or anything you're doing
i just don't want to fuck everything up
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that won't happen so easilyI love you, Alexanderif your aren't able to have faith in yourself, at least try to have a little more faith in meno subject
i love you too
james
it's so stupid, but
every time you say shit like "i'm here" it makes me want to cry kind of?
i'm not used to it
so i gotta stop getting in my head waiting for it to be different
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it's not your fault if you feel differently because of what you've been throughbut you're worth more than your you've been led to believeespecially to me
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thanks
i dunno what else to say that wouldn't sound like
i don't know
but thanks
it means a lot
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just saying it how it isand no worries okay?I just wanna do my part in all this