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yeah? 🙂

I'm not trying to fight you but maybe our perspectives are just too different so it's hard to reconcile for the both of us?
I grew up really poor so just buying someone a couch is a pretty big deal, when I'm from and given the norms I'm used to, and to me $300 is a lot to throw at a couch that might only be used once
because of how I grew up, I'm very attuned to the notion of waste also
I know you haven't really seen that side of me yet but for example food waste is something that's very difficult for me to witness and put up with
monetary waste is several pegs down, but still not something I'm accustomed to

in some ways, I'm sort of forgetting you can have anything you want and money is no consequence to you, so that is a little on me
but also I don't feel comfortable with you throwing around money for my sake just cause you can too
I don't want you to think that's what I'm here for or that that's the only way to treat me to something nice
and I don't want to get used to having whatever I want whenever I want either since that would change the person that I am


does that make sense?

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you'll see 🖤


i mean, i kinda got the food thing. with the mason jars. but

yeah. i think it makes sense. i didn't grow up super poor but it's not like we were rolling in it either. we didn't starve but we weren't doing a whole lot of... i dunno, extracurricular bullshit
my parents blamed me for that but that's another thing
but anyway, i know this has been my situation for awhile but i still don't really know what to do with money
and i know that probably sounds really fuckin' stupid to you. i know. like, what a dumbass am i, don't know what plates to buy or how to dress nice or whatever, boo hoo
so i guess if i have money and you don't or i can do something to make your life better, i wanna do that. because what the fuck else am i gonna do? hookers and blow?
that was a joke
dude i can't believe we're fighting over fucking furniture
that's married people shit

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if it's married people shit, are you proposing? 🙂

I understand though
I wouldn't know what to do with that money either
it's not stupid
how about we see what there is and maybe buy just one piece for now? and when you come again we can maybe look at another?
that way we know I'm still in the same place, right?

if it's not clear though, thank you
I really am grateful that you want to do something nice for me

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i dunno man, what are we gonna do about last names? 😉

yeah to be clear i was just thinking either a couch or a coffee table
like you already have chairs but then you'd have a place to put things that isn't like an official table. like it's multi-functional

[ he put so much thought into furnishing an apartment he hasn't even seen, bless his cotton socks. ]

yeah, of course dude
like i said, y'know
you deserve nice shit
at least like base level nice shit

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would you rather combine, keep yours, or use mine? I'm generally open to what my partner prefers, though I am mostly know as James Barnes

( just says that all plainly because it's also true. )

sure
makes sense

base level?

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mmm maybe we should just keep em separate
alex barnes sounds so white bread but my name already barely fits the character count for credit cards and shit

i just mean because you don't want anything hella fancy
you're still gonna get the best coffee table ikea can buy

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Alexander Karanes maybe
or Alexander Barmov?
I'm assuming you wouldn't want to use your original last name

( since he changed it. )

oh
right
well yeah like I said we can go look for something together

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i mean it's still my "real" name. i just don't give it to anyone
anyway those need some work
if you're really trying to russian it up, it would be more like baronov. or barnsov, barnesov. let's go nuts, barnznakov
one of those wouldn't be too bad 🤔

yeah for sure
nothing as hella romantic as the warehouse lighting in an ikea, deadass

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didn't know how Russian you still wanted it
since I'm boring white bread compared to you
British background and all that
Barnznakov feels very intimate
I like that
I was trying to make it easier on your credit cards though 🙂

what's wrong with the warehouse lighting?
I think IKEA is nice

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come on don't be like that
you're great white bread
like a good sourdough
anyway it's the same length as karamazov so 🤷🏻

i was joshing you
talking shit
hey do you want a shark

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I meant my suggestions, silly 🙂

you mean the IKEA plush? ( yes, he uses the internet. )
sure
maybe we get a couple
one for each of us 🙂

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your suggestions were a good swing at it. but now you're sourdough 😎 🖤

yeah, blahaj
i used to have one but something happened to it so
sounds like we've gotta get two
it's really gonna bring your place together

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cause I'm soft and fluffy on the inside?

oh damn
well we definitely have to fix that then
and yeah I think that'd help
it wouldn't feel as empty that way because part of you would always be here

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yep. and yet still kinda sour

[ sir?? SIR??? what kind of gay shenanigans??? "it wouldn't feel as empty that way because part of you would always be here"? kill him. right here, on the spot. stop just SAYING these things! he's gonna have to go have a smoke to calm down from this, the fuck. ]

well if you want to decorate with parts of me, you just had to ask
hmm
that came out pretty wrong huh

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we like to call that character

and
I
feel like the only way that makes sense is something dirty
but I'm assuming you also mean a specific kind of dirty and not like
blowing you up in my apartment or whatever

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i said wrong, not dirty
it was more wrong in the what the fuck kind of serial killer bullshit sense

but i was really going for a blanket or coffee cup or something though
in general

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oh
right
I'm not opposed to a little blood or knives though
I'm just
saying

uh


we can have those too 🙂
and also a toothbrush

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is that so
how about you expand on that. wrong way or dirty way?

aw, i'm glad you took time to think about my oral hygiene
i mean i was gonna just bring some of my shit over
like i said just some little whatevers
so you have something nice

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if by dirty we're talking like sex and stuff then definitely dirty

well you don't have to leave one here if you don't want to

( leaving one there would just imply that alex will be back again soon, though. )

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sick, me too 😏

what?? i wasn't being sarcastic, i thought it was nice
sweet. adorable even
i just meant the other stuff
not-toothbrush stuff

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the blood and knives?

oh
I mean
right
that makes sense
sorry
just not wanting to be too weird I guess or whatever

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yes! geez

oh man don't worry
being weird is story of my life, deadass
i'll bring a toothbrush for keeps
it'll be a hella bright colored one or some shit so everyday you can see it in your bathroom and say
what the fuck is that

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just making sure!
but good 🙂 very good

'what is that color anyway, the color of then inside of Alex's brain?'
I'll make sure it sits very noticeably by the sink

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i was thinking yellow or orange so that makes me worry for my brain now
i feel like you're angling for pink and it doesn't bother me but but it IS kind of silly

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why pink? cause I said it was the inside of you?
I didn't really know what color to pick, honestly

( pink was also not a color men avoided in bucky's time. )