aw, you'd do that for me? fuck yeah i do she's so fucking weird when she decides to remember me dude at least it's usually just around my birthday which could be any time between august and october
oh you're driving this time? sick don't get stuck in connecticut
no i don't talk to her she's basically dead to me bro but every once in awhile i get messages or whatever this is it's like she just fucking wakes up like guess i'll be a mom today
no!!! the fuck dude how would i forget that??? i meant "you're driving this time" as in i didn't know what mode of transportation you would be taking to get here i didn't know if you were flying or taking the train or whatever the fuck
she does reach out like i said usually just around my birthday occasionally mothers day she called me to tell me it was her birthday once
her personality is pretty fuckin disordered dude i'm pretty sure she's resented me since i was a kid then it just... got worse i don't think she even gets why i don't talk to her
but i guess every now and then she misses my attention maybe she thinks i can do her a solid with starfox 64 maybe it's just to fuck with me maybe she actually cares, but you can't trust her she'll flip on that shit like simone biles
does that mean i get to ride on your motorcycle with you 😎
what, do you mean reach out like show up in front of me? in person? she's not that invested, and she knows i would bolt dead ass i would leave through the fire escape of my own home before i spent time sharing that much oxygen with her
she's so crazy fucked i feel like i can't even describe it according to her everything i do is for attention i think she thinks me not talking to her for years is just me trying to get her attention which is just... really? fuck off even before the stuff with dad, like i said i was the kid with the behavior issues, even without the fuckin psychic version of running around with a knife i guess maybe i was a kid who acted like a little shit for attention, somebody call the motherfucking press anyway then she blamed me for dad dying and i guess told my sister i pretended to almost die for attention so there's that
anyway i'm not keeping up but jumping 12 feet is wicked sick dude
not quite what I meant either don't worry about it though I didn't mean to make you feel like you had to dig into it more for my sake in the end, I'm just glad I got the chance to have you in my life
you're not on bad terms with your sister?
the Olympics were always a big deal before also but I guess it's different for people now, with everything being a Google search away
i usually don't talk about any of this shit so i'm sorry i just end up fuckin... vomiting out all my trauma on you but i'm glad i have you too
no. i mean, i love my sister, i'm probably closer to her than anyone else i guess the thing is that she moved out the second she could, so there's some stuff she doesn't understand because she wasn't there for it so everything's fine until we hit one of those snags or potholes or however you wanna think of it
if you're sure i know it's just a lot of... idk, woe is me sad violin playing in the background bullshit
i mean, maybe not more than friends you're super high up there but it's a really small circle of people anyway but yeah like, what she wasn't there for? boston she didn't move up here she wasn't here for... dad and everything it's not like she didn't come for the funeral and she visits but she wasn't here for mom being a fucking nightmare actually mom got worse without tori
then I'll be glad to treat you to a thrilling ride 🙂
there's nothing wrong with acknowledging those things it's probably important to we used to just hold all of those feelings inside and it tends to make things worse
oh I'm so sorry you had to go through all that alone was she the favored child?
I mean I manage to guess what you're thinking but also I think she probably isn't an occult nerd that uses sex and drugs to escape how shitty her powers make her feel every other moment
first of all, where did that read come, fuck i didn't realize the fuckin library was open second of all. no but she's a bigger occult nerd than me. she's the one who actually does witchcraft shit. and she smokes actually she collects knives, you two can trade knife notes or something
library's always open if you know how to break in you can read me if it makes you feel better why are you saying "she smokes" like you don't also smoke??? also we're talking about that energy nature witch thing right and not like well some other witch I know right?
is it? yeah guess you'd have to be a tree first huh
nah, i won't read you. i'm hella kindhearted like that 👼 i meant it as like, here's a thing we have in common while you're trying to list off shit about me 🤷🏻 and uh that depends on what you mean by "energy nature witch"
it's kind of like... i just have spooky shit, right. my brain is spooky shit, i'm spooky shit. witches are more like, they can use tools and rituals and that sort of thing to channel the spooky shit some people are better at it than others, right. anyone can draw salt circle but some people are just gonna be ✨ talented ✨ i don't think tori could gaslight a whole town in new jersey but i wouldn't fuck with her
are you into trees? is this a kink thing i'm just learning about? 🤔
wow lying to my face, just like that what is this relationship to you huh?? a foundation of LIES???
I mean I wasn't going to mess with her, I was just trying understand the meaning used... I'm not at all familiar with that kind of occult stuff though so uh idk I guess I'll stick to my corner of idk what going on anymore and call it a day
no I'm more into idiot sharks that bite everything in sight by which I mean not sight cause they can't see shit
nah you're good i just meant like, in general i still think she would like you given you're the only person i've expressed interest in for more than 24 hours in years on years but i already told you, i'll protect you you from spooky shit so don't worry 🖤
yeah it's really more what they hear or smell like the blood in the water thing is true and they can hear movement anyway what i'm trying to say is shut up, i'm gonna bite you
I can't tell if I should be worried numbering in that small of a group... but sure ty I mean Winky seems to like me enough so at least I'm not entirely abominable to spooky stuff that ghost hasn't bothered us while I was there either and I thought he'd make a ruckus even
wait are you after my blood? cause idk how tasty serum is, if you're actually a vampire
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you wanna burn it together after I drive up tomorrow?no subject
fuck yeah i do
she's so fucking weird when she decides to remember me dude
at least it's usually just around my birthday
which could be any time between august and october
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technically you're doing the hard part of waitingsince I'm driving up anyway
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sick
don't get stuck in connecticut
no i don't talk to her
she's basically dead to me bro
but every once in awhile i get messages or
whatever this is
it's like she just fucking wakes up like
guess i'll be a mom today
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did you forget I'm visiting for your birthday???it's odd to me that she does these sorts of things and never actually reaches outI'm unclear what it's meant to accomplishno subject
how would i forget that???
i meant "you're driving this time" as in i didn't know what mode of transportation you would be taking to get here
i didn't know if you were flying or taking the train or whatever the fuck
she does reach out
like i said usually just around my birthday
occasionally mothers day
she called me to tell me it was her birthday once
her personality is pretty fuckin disordered dude
i'm pretty sure she's resented me since i was a kid
then it just... got worse
i don't think she even gets why i don't talk to her
but i guess every now and then she misses my attention
maybe she thinks i can do her a solid with starfox 64
maybe it's just to fuck with me
maybe she actually cares, but you can't trust her
she'll flip on that shit like simone biles
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wanted to see how bad it'd be going up with my motorcycleso it's kind of a test I guess
that's not what I mean by reach out but I understandand understandable given what she went through and then chose not to seeand you're lucky I've been keeping up with the Olympics enough to understand that reference nowno subject
what, do you mean reach out like show up in front of me? in person?
she's not that invested, and she knows i would bolt
dead ass i would leave through the fire escape of my own home before i spent time sharing that much oxygen with her
she's so crazy fucked i feel like i can't even describe it
according to her everything i do is for attention
i think she thinks me not talking to her for years is just me trying to get her attention
which is just... really? fuck off
even before the stuff with dad, like i said
i was the kid with the behavior issues, even without the fuckin psychic version of running around with a knife i guess
maybe i was a kid who acted like a little shit for attention, somebody call the motherfucking press
anyway then she blamed me for dad dying and i guess told my sister i pretended to almost die for attention so
there's that
anyway
i'm not keeping up but jumping 12 feet is wicked sick dude
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if you want, surenot quite what I meant eitherdon't worry about it thoughI didn't mean to make you feel like you had to dig into it more for my sakein the end, I'm just glad I got the chance to have you in my lifeyou're not on bad terms with your sister?the Olympics were always a big deal before also but I guess it's different for people now, with everything being a Google search awayno subject
i usually don't talk about any of this shit so i'm sorry i just end up fuckin... vomiting out all my trauma on you
but i'm glad i have you too
no. i mean, i love my sister, i'm probably closer to her than anyone else
i guess the thing is that she moved out the second she could, so there's some stuff she doesn't understand because she wasn't there for it
so everything's fine until we hit one of those snags or potholes or however you wanna think of it
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have you been on a motorcycle before?hey no don't think like thatI'm here to listenI'm sorry you're stuck with these feelings thoughyou deserved and still deserve better
more than your friends?what sort of stuff was she not there for?no subject
if you're sure
i know it's just a lot of... idk, woe is me sad violin playing in the background bullshit
i mean, maybe not more than friends
you're super high up there
but it's a really small circle of people anyway
but yeah like, what she wasn't there for?
boston
she didn't move up here
she wasn't here for... dad and everything
it's not like she didn't come for the funeral
and she visits
but she wasn't here for mom being a fucking nightmare
actually mom got worse without tori
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then I'll be glad to treat you to a thrilling ride 🙂there's nothing wrong with acknowledging those thingsit's probably important to
we used to just hold all of those feelings inside and it tends to make things worseohI'm so sorry you had to go through all that alonewas she the favored child?no subject
yeah
i knew she loved her more but she also made tori her whole ass therapist/substitute parent
like i knew it wasn't that much better pretty early on
do you have siblings? have i asked that? i feel like i should know that
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Jesusthat's really messed upmaybe it's better if she doesn't know about meand yeah I had a sisterRebeccashe was 5 years younger
and had the hugest crush on Steve in middle school but that changed with time haha
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you can meet tori though
or you should
i mean, i want you to
[ this is a big deal for him. this is "meet the family" as in he has a whole ass one family member he acknowledges as family 😭 ]
aw, cute
oh shit dude did she have a nickname
was she becca barnes
becky barnes
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she lives here, right?are you sure she'd be okay with me?I do have a public image already and all thatBecky when she was really little but she preferred Becca when she was olderyes we were Becky and Buckyno subject
and probably? i fuckin hope so
she acts kind of pissed off all the time so you never know what she's really thinking
[ i.e., it runs in the family 🙈 ]
oh man LMAO
that's so fuckin cute dude
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I meanI manage to guess what you're thinking
but also I think she probably isn't an occult nerd that uses sex and drugs to escape how shitty her powers make her feel every other momentand she's probably not as darling as youyeah yeahlaugh it up
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i didn't realize the fuckin library was open
second of all. no but she's a bigger occult nerd than me. she's the one who actually does witchcraft shit. and she smokes
actually she collects knives, you two can trade knife notes or something
true, but that's a pretty tall order
🖤
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library's always open if you know how to break inyou can read me if it makes you feel betterwhy are you saying "she smokes" like you don't also smoke???also we're talking about that
energy nature witch thing right and not likewell some other witch I knowright?is it?yeah guess you'd have to be a tree first huh
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i meant it as like, here's a thing we have in common while you're trying to list off shit about me 🤷🏻
and uh that depends on what you mean by "energy nature witch"
it's kind of like...
i just have spooky shit, right. my brain is spooky shit, i'm spooky shit. witches are more like, they can use tools and rituals and that sort of thing to channel the spooky shit
some people are better at it than others, right. anyone can draw salt circle but some people are just gonna be ✨ talented ✨
i don't think tori could gaslight a whole town in new jersey but i wouldn't fuck with her
are you into trees? is this a kink thing i'm just learning about? 🤔
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wow lying to my face, just like thatwhat is this relationship to you huh?? a foundation of LIES???
I mean I wasn't going to mess with her, I was just trying understand the meaning used...I'm not at all familiar with that kind of occult stuff though so uhidk I guess I'll stick to my corner of idk what going on anymore and call it a dayno I'm more into idiot sharks that bite everything in sightby which I mean not sight cause they can't see shit
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nah you're good
i just meant like, in general
i still think she would like you given you're the only person i've expressed interest in for more than 24 hours in years on years
but i already told you, i'll protect you you from spooky shit so
don't worry 🖤
yeah it's really more what they hear or smell
like the blood in the water thing is true
and they can hear movement
anyway what i'm trying to say is
shut up, i'm gonna bite you
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hella kind-hearted???I can't tell if I should be worried numbering in that small of a group...but sure tyI mean Winky seems to like me enough so at least I'm not entirely abominable to spooky stuffthat ghost hasn't bothered us while I was there either and I thought he'd make a ruckus evenwait are you after my blood? cause idk how tasty serum is, if you're actually a vampiredo wish you were here now thoughdamn(no subject)
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