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I used to make daisy chains for Becca

( it's the first thought he has, and he sends that before realizing. )

shit
sorry that's not
relevant

I was just remembering
sorry

yeah that's what I thought it might've been

doesn't have to be open water
there are shallows, if you wanted to soak your feet

and I'm gonna be your pool noodle, remember? I won't let anything happen even in the shallows, okay?

you're not a killjoy
it's only fun if it's fun for the both of us, darling

I mean it when I say I love you

no dude it's okay
you wanna make flower crowns? daisy chains? whatever the fuck?
we can fuckin make some sick ass flower chains 🌸🌼🌺🌼🌸

welllll
maybe
if it's just the shallows
and you're gonna be my pool noodle
but if i drown, i'm gonna be a ghost and never stop giving you shit, just so you know

i love you too
i just don't wanna be the reason you don't get to do shit you like

sure if you want
I might be a bit rusty but I think I still remember how to make them decently enough

if you drown from being one foot in the water I'd be impressed tbh
but I won't let it happen, okay?
and if it gets bad, we can stop and do something else

I mean
I can always go by myself? so it's not like you're really preventing me from that

even if you held me at gunpoint, I'd probably just go do it eventually anyway

I like the wilderness
it's quiet

i've made them before
like, recently
it was an erika thing
i'll make you an absolutely bitchin flower crown
or a really shitty one, but you can pretend it's bitchin

hey, you can drown in a puddle if you can't get up
just saying
but i know you won't
you're good for that

anyway
it's cool if you wanna do nature shit on your own
i won't even hold you at gunpoint about it

and i guess i don't know what to do with the quiet
it always feels too quiet
gotta have police sirens and drunk people yelling at each other to lull me to sleep, lmao

it'll be wonderful regardless since you made it for me

you don't seem to drown in your drool at night so I think you'll be okay in a puddle, Alexander 🙂

wow so merciful
I'm truly blessed

there are sounds out there too, silly
it's the kind of quiet that calm, not the unnerving sort
in my experience, anyway

yeah yeah, you better wear it

what the fuck? i don't drool in my sleep 😤

[ even as he says that, he knows the truth 😭 ]

yeah, but i know what traffic sounds like. i hear some sk-sk-sk noise? the fuck is that? it could be anything
good thing i'll have you around to protect me from spiders or coyotes or whatever the fuck while i'm trying to sleep in this peaceful silence

I'll wear it proudly 😊

uh huh sure

I'll point out what the sounds are
it's really not that bad, honest

I hope you don't end up hating it though

well, for what it's worth
i hate pretty much everything, but it's hard to hate things when i'm with you

oh
shucks

( is he blushing? he's blushing. )

that's early sweet to hear

but admittedly it worries me also
cause like
I can disappoint you really easily too, if you already hate pretty much everything

[ omg james do not be trying to ruin the cute cheesy moment he just had 😤 in which he actually let himself be cute and cheesy. ]

the problem with that is you'd have to disappoint me first
and i'm pretty sure that's impossible, so