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it was the new thing, then
I believed a lot in it
and it did get us far but I'm not sure if I really have the brain for it, even if I loved reading about it

I
don't know the names of things so I'm not sure how I'm supposed to express any of that

well yeah cause it takes like a couple weeks at worst anyway so it wouldn't be that big of a deal
you're pretty good at fixing things, as far as I'm concerned though

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real
that's me with most science shit anyway

oh, uh
you know, i never thought of where to go to learn about that kind of stuff
like watching porn doesn't explain-explain things
maybe reddit

anyway
i don't really try to fix things on the reg
like i said, it's hard
and it's the only time i ever hit my limit
but you make me feel like i could
i patched up that bird okay

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right

I mean
risky searching on Reddit isn't a game I particularly like playing
but sure

that bird was sweet on me up until I let him go
feels a little unfair, considering you did all the work

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i dunno dude, google's just as risky

nah
you probably made it feel safe
since you tend to do that

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wasn't saying Google was better
just that I'm not keen on searching that stuff cause I dunno what kinda stuff I'd get

me?

( sounds fake. )

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yeah you
i already told you that you make me feel safe
don't make me say it again
the emotions might give me hives

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dunno about you but hives sounds like the opposite of safe

but I do try my best
I'm just not sure it's the right way of it sometimes
that's all

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i think as soon as i tell you specific things you do, you start overthinking it
it's just all the little things you do piled up together

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well



a lot of the things I've done aren't anywhere near as kind or caring as you tend to depict
so

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i like that stuff too
maybe like isn't the right word
the fucked up stuff is part of what makes you you
if i didn't see some of it, i wouldn't see the part of you that makes me hope for things
for me
and i know it's not the same
but that doesn't mean it doesn't mean something

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I
really hope you don't like the fact I killed a bunch of people??

but I think I understand
sort of

I'm not sure it's supposed to mean anything good though
that stuff

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no!! that why i reworded it, i knew it would come out wrong

but anyway, i mean
maybe not
i don't think killing a bunch of people means anything good usually
but you mean something good to me

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I don't really kill people anymore so there's kind of a difference there though

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well yeah
can't you just accept that i like you because you're you
if you weren't you, you would be somebody else
and i don't care about whoever that is

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you're really sweet, Alexander




I love you

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i love you too

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I'm glad I met you
even if it wasn't the best circumstance

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if it weren't for you i could've choked on my own vomit so
there's probably worse meet cutes out there

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you were being cute about it, even if it was annoying

acting like you didn't need help I mean

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you know how self-sufficient i am 🤷🏻

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debatable

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*you know how self-sufficient i believe i am 😒

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lol it's charming okay
and I know it's not all the time


no frowning, Alexander
I adore you

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i'm gonna bite you 🦈

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I like when you bite me